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Date: 1.2.13
Mood: Neither here nor there
Health:  I have a pulse
Clothes:  My fave Levi's; My Fave sweater (Black crochet style with black silk underlay (attached) to cover the body - but the sleeves are open weave) Tacky polka dot socks (LOVE me some funky socks - and I like them even before RG3 was famous for it!) and some ugly black slip-on shoes :( Hey - the first thing you need to know about me... I'm NOT a shoe person... I'd go my whole life barefoot if I could.  But I digress...

Weather:  Cold... otherwise I dunno... No windows here on the bottom floor of my office building - I'm going out for lunch in a few minutes though.  Maybe I'll update? 
Currently Reading:  In Print: Les Miserable  Audio: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Thought/Quote of the Day: "You're never fully dressed without a smile.  I, however, am not smiling, but do appear to be fully clothed... Unless of course this is one of those horrible high school nightmares where you wake up in front of your English class with no clothes on...???" Source: JMA (friend of high school)
Song of the Day: Call me Maybe - Carlye Ray Jepsen (I know I know...  UGH... its totally stuck in my head.... grrr)

Picture of the Day:: A creepy but really COOL discovery the kids and I made while braving the cold and wind playing outside this past weekend: An insect exoskeleton stuck to the plum tree in my back yard!!!  There's a hold in the back where the bug escaped after shedding its skin - but its absolutely fascinating that this stayed firmly stuck to the tree even in the high gusting winds we've had over the past few weeks!!  Coolness!!!

Ramblings: I refuse - point-blank REFUSE to make New Years Resolutions... or to subscribe to the "New Year, New Me" cliche'. 
Having said that however, I can't help but feel that New Years is the perfect and most symbolic time to make changes in life.
Yesterday, for example, I cleaned and scrubbed my kitchen, clipped all the dead-ends from my hair (and even gave myself long-ish bangs) and cleaned out all the old crap from the DVR.  LOL!  Okay - so not a total overhaul... but whatev.  Its a start.  I always clip my dead ends on NYD... dunno why.  I probably read it in a horoscope years ago and actually had good results from it - so I kept it up.  Hey - don't knock it.  I actually have really awesome hair.  (One of the very few compliments you will see me giving myself)

Actually, this last thought takes me directly to my current project... ME.  Second thing you need to know about me... I HATE cliche's...  any cliche... ugh... they make me want to slap somebody.  Oh - and I also hate the word "Hate"... but whatever... 
So - my project - as I was saying - I truly hate cliches... but sometimes there is pure truth in them.  My current project is the cliche "Finding myself".  Most people accomplish this slowly through their childhood, adolescence and then complete the journey in early adulthood to become normal, functioning members of society.  Yeah - okay, maybe in Perfectville, USA this happens... LMAO!!!  Actually, as it turns out, I'm not the only over-25 to find myself at a complete loss for who the fuck I actually am.  I suffered in complete silence for YEARS going through depressions and meds and doctors and angry rants and crying only to finally suck it up and talk about it.  My husband and BFF Roxy have proven absolutely invaluable to me in this endeavor!  >muah< 
When Roxy suggested this blog - I thought it would be the perfect outlet to vent my very narcissistic and pathetic rants (anonymously, of course -HAHAHA - I can't actually let people know how insecure I actually am in real life)
So - welcome to my little "finding myself" rant!  Aren't you lucky?? 

Oh - I just realized I skipped around through about 6 different thoughts up there... YIKES!!  Seriously - I think I might be ADD... I'm not in any way making fun of those with a true diagnosis... but merely stating the fact that I believe that I myself have ADD. 

OH!!  I remember now... I was sparked my the fact that my clothes are actually decent today... I don't mean to say that I walk around wearing dirty shit-covered clothes every day - EWW - no!  But typically I just throw something on (a perk of working in a casual office!) and don't worry about what my hair is doing, the pimples on my face (they're numerous) or the shoes on my feet.. (blech). 
After years of this, it hit me that possibly THIS is the reason that people no longer take me seriously???  And then the next thing that hit me was "OOOOOOOHHHHHMUUHHHHHGAAAWWWDDDDD"  I've become one of THOSE moms...  *shudder* one of those moms who stops caring about herself... stops taking care to look decent - stops wearing makeup and fixing her hair and wearing half-presentable clothes that actually fit..... *SHREAK* NOOO !!!  NOT ME!!!! 
*sigh*
Its okay though.... there's a fine line between being THAT mom and the woman who is secure enough in herself and her relationship that she doesn't feel the need to make herself up in order to be accepted by society or to bow to social pressures of what a woman "should" look like.  I'm toeing that line... LOL... but I'm firmly on the latter side.  *whew*
My main point here is, if I don't take good care of myself - I can't possibly take good enough care of my sweet babies, my husband, my house, my career, or my life!!!! 
So here we go - conscious effort into taking care of myself: appearance, food, exercise (a whole nother ranting blog all in itself....), spiritually, and mentally (with special emphasis on the MENTALLY - I'm neither crazy nor stupid... but sometimes I feel completely unhinged....)

Oops!!  Gotta go get some work done...
Until next time, bitches!!!
TTFN