Thursday, January 3, 2013

Why so Blue, Panda Bear??

Date: 1.3.13

Mood: Decent

Health:  Just keep breathing

Outfit:  BLUE!!  Blue hair clips, blue button-down shirt, blue jeans, blue argyle socks, I even changed the cover of my stupid smartphone from my usual pink to blue.  My purse and coat are brown and my shoes (stupid shoes) are the same black as yesterday... but I've already stated that I don't really care enough about shoes to have a different pair for every day of the year. 

Weather: Chilly - but promising to be nice later :)

Song of the Day: "What I Got" by Sublime

Pic of the day:  Because I'll do nothing but eat, breathe, sleep and LIVE girl scout cookies until March 31st.... LOL!!!!



What I'm Reading: Same as yesterday
Thought/Quote of the Day:  "Be the change you want to see in the world" Mahatma Gandi 

My Ranting: 
Its a blue kind of day.... no, not blue as in sad... no, I'm actually quite happy and positive today. 
Maybe its my OCD, but in my head I've assigned a color to each month of the year... just a color that in my head, fits the month itself.  And January is a light forget-me-not kind of blue.  Very light, pretty - winterish!  
And today it just happened that I picked out all kinds of BLUE things to wear to work.  No idea why?  It just happened.  :)  

The Color Blue


The color blue is the color of trust and responsibility
The color blue is one of trust, honesty and loyalty. It is sincere, reserved and quiet, and doesn't like to make a fuss or draw attention. Blue hates confrontation, and likes to do things in its own way.

From a color psychology perspective, blue is reliable and responsible. This color exhibits an inner security and confidence. You can rely on it to take control and do the right thing in difficult times. It has a need for order and direction in its life, including its living and work spaces.
Blue seeks peace and tranquility above everything else, promoting both physical and mental relaxation. It reduces stress, creating a sense of calmness, relaxation and order - we certainly feel a sense of calm if we lie on our backs and look into a bright blue cloudless sky. It slows the metabolism. The paler the blue the more freedom we feel.
In the meaning of colors, blue relates to one-to-one communication, especially communication using the voice - speaking the truth through verbal self-expression - it is the teacher, the public speaker.
The color blue is idealistic, enhancing self-expression and our ability to communicate our needs and wants. It inspires higher ideals.
Blue's wisdom comes from its higher level of intelligence, a spiritual perspective.
Blue is the color of the spirit, devotion and religious study. It enhances contemplation and prayer. On the other hand, blue's devotion can be to any cause or concept it believes in, including devotion to family or work.
Blue is the helper, the rescuer, the friend in need. It's success is defined by the quality and quantity of its relationships. It is a giver, not a taker. It likes to build strong trusting relationships and becomes deeply hurt if that trust is betrayed.
Blue is conservative and predictable, a safe and non-threatening color, and the most universally liked color of all, probably because it is safe and non-threatening. At the same time blue is persistent and determined to succeed in whichever endeavors it pursues.
Change is difficult for blue. It is inflexible and when faced with a new or different idea, it considers it, analyzes it, thinks it over slowly and then tries to make it fit its own acceptable version of reality.
Blue is nostalgic. It is a color that lives in the past, relating everything in the present and the future to experiences in the past.

Blue Represents
Communication: Blue relates to one-to-one verbal communication and self expression.
Peace and calm: The color blue induces calm and peace within us, particularly the deeper shades.
Honesty: Blue is the colour of truth.
Authority: The darker the color blue, the more authority it has.
Religion: Blue is the colour of devotion and religious study.
Wisdom: Blue enhances the wisdom of the intellect.

Positive and Negative Traits

Positive keywords include: loyalty, trust and integrity, tactful, reliability and responsibility, conservatism and perseverance, caring and concern, idealistic and orderly, authority, devotion and contemplation, peaceful and calm.

Negative keywords include: being rigid, deceitful and spiteful, self-righteous, superstitious and emotionally unstable, too conservative, predictable and weak, unforgiving, and frigid. It can also indicate manipulation, unfaithfulness and untrustworthiness.


Hmmmm......... interesting.....  I don't think of myself as rigid or conservative... YUCK... definitely not conservative....  hmmm....  so we'll go with peace and calm and wise.  Yeah - I like that!!! 

Random subject change:  My new goal is to wean myself off of soda.  I should be aiming to get myself off of caffeine completely, but I just LOVE my daily coffee!!!  Seriously - LOVE it!!!  And I have 2 small children and work full time... no... caffeine is a MUST!!  However, soda just has horrible ingredients, and lots of empty calories.  And I'm finding lately that the carbonation messes with my tummy.  :( 
As I sit here typing this, I'm sipping on a can of Dr. Pepper (love) because my coffee just disappears far too quickly on the commute to work.  LOL!!  So after this can is empty, I'll fill up my big ass cup (its HUGE - 64 ounces!!!) with ice and water and sip on that for the rest of the day.  YAY!!  Hydration ROCKS!!!


Wednesday, January 2, 2013

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Date: 1.2.13
Mood: Neither here nor there
Health:
  I have a pulse
ClothesMy fave Levi's; My Fave sweater (Black crochet style with black silk underlay (attached) to cover the body - but the sleeves are open weave) Tacky polka dot socks (LOVE me some funky socks - and I like them even before RG3 was famous for it!) and some ugly black slip-on shoes :( Hey - the first thing you need to know about me... I'm NOT a shoe person... I'd go my whole life barefoot if I could.  But I digress...

WeatherCold... otherwise I dunno... No windows here on the bottom floor of my office building - I'm going out for lunch in a few minutes though.  Maybe I'll update? 
Currently Reading:  In Print: Les Miserable  Audio: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Thought/Quote of the Day: "You're never fully dressed without a smile.  I, however, am not smiling, but do appear to be fully clothed... Unless of course this is one of those horrible high school nightmares where you wake up in front of your English class with no clothes on...???" Source: JMA (friend of high school)
Song of the Day: Call me Maybe - Carlye Ray Jepsen (I know I know...  UGH... its totally stuck in my head.... grrr)
Picture of the Day:: A creepy but really COOL discovery the kids and I made while braving the cold and wind playing outside this past weekend: An insect exoskeleton stuck to the plum tree in my back yard!!!  There's a hold in the back where the bug escaped after shedding its skin - but its absolutely fascinating that this stayed firmly stuck to the tree even in the high gusting winds we've had over the past few weeks!!  Coolness!!!

Ramblings: I refuse - point-blank REFUSE to make New Years Resolutions... or to subscribe to the "New Year, New Me" cliche'. 
Having said that however, I can't help but feel that New Years is the perfect and most symbolic time to make changes in life.
Yesterday, for example, I cleaned and scrubbed my kitchen, clipped all the dead-ends from my hair (and even gave myself long-ish bangs) and cleaned out all the old crap from the DVR.  LOL!  Okay - so not a total overhaul... but whatev.  Its a start.  I always clip my dead ends on NYD... dunno why.  I probably read it in a horoscope years ago and actually had good results from it - so I kept it up.  Hey - don't knock it.  I actually have really awesome hair.  (One of the very few compliments you will see me giving myself)
Actually, this last thought takes me directly to my current project... ME.  Second thing you need to know about me... I HATE cliche's...  any cliche... ugh... they make me want to slap somebody.  Oh - and I also hate the word "Hate"... but whatever... 
So - my project - as I was saying - I truly hate cliches... but sometimes there is pure truth in them.  My current project is the cliche "Finding myself".  Most people accomplish this slowly through their childhood, adolescence and then complete the journey in early adulthood to become normal, functioning members of society.  Yeah - okay, maybe in Perfectville, USA this happens... LMAO!!!  Actually, as it turns out, I'm not the only over-25 to find myself at a complete loss for who the fuck I actually am.  I suffered in complete silence for YEARS going through depressions and meds and doctors and angry rants and crying only to finally suck it up and talk about it.  My husband and BFF Roxy have proven absolutely invaluable to me in this endeavor!  >muah< 
When Roxy suggested this blog - I thought it would be the perfect outlet to vent my very narcissistic and pathetic rants (anonymously, of course -HAHAHA - I can't actually let people know how insecure I actually am in real life)
So - welcome to my little "finding myself" rant!  Aren't you lucky?? 

Oh - I just realized I skipped around through about 6 different thoughts up there... YIKES!!  Seriously - I think I might be ADD... I'm not in any way making fun of those with a true diagnosis... but merely stating the fact that I believe that I myself have ADD. 

OH!!  I remember now... I was sparked my the fact that my clothes are actually decent today... I don't mean to say that I walk around wearing dirty shit-covered clothes every day - EWW - no!  But typically I just throw something on (a perk of working in a casual office!) and don't worry about what my hair is doing, the pimples on my face (they're numerous) or the shoes on my feet.. (blech). 
After years of this, it hit me that possibly THIS is the reason that people no longer take me seriously???  And then the next thing that hit me was "OOOOOOOHHHHHMUUHHHHHGAAAWWWDDDDD"  I've become one of THOSE moms...  *shudder* one of those moms who stops caring about herself... stops taking care to look decent - stops wearing makeup and fixing her hair and wearing half-presentable clothes that actually fit..... *SHREAK* NOOO !!!  NOT ME!!!! 
*sigh*
Its okay though.... there's a fine line between being THAT mom and the woman who is secure enough in herself and her relationship that she doesn't feel the need to make herself up in order to be accepted by society or to bow to social pressures of what a woman "should" look like.  I'm toeing that line... LOL... but I'm firmly on the latter side.  *whew*
My main point here is, if I don't take good care of myself - I can't possibly take good enough care of my sweet babies, my husband, my house, my career, or my life!!!! 
So here we go - conscious effort into taking care of myself: appearance, food, exercise (a whole nother ranting blog all in itself....), spiritually, and mentally (with special emphasis on the MENTALLY - I'm neither crazy nor stupid... but sometimes I feel completely unhinged....)

Oops!!  Gotta go get some work done...
Until next time, bitches!!!
TTFN

Back to work 2013! (Party’s OVER!)
Today’s Date: January 2nd 2013
Mood: um. Irritated. But that could be the lack of nicotine. (2 days free)
Health: I’m working on it (see above)
Outfit: L.e.i  Jeans (2 sizes too big), Cato, um… black shirt… looks like it has bat wings, long sleeve. (Black) Nike running shoes. ((Gym clothes in the Jeep for later)) mix matched socks (one hot pink with tiny neon yellow dots, the other solid neon yellow)
>>> nails. We’re up to like 15 coats of this cheap drugstore polish. Seriously? NO MAS!! I will NEVER buy the cheap stuff again!! SPOILED!! I know!!! But seriously, I’m sorry!! – you get what you pay for!!
>>>Accessories:  orange fleece/plaid vegan/animal friendly scarf (that I got for Christmas), wood carved gauges (that I got for Christmas). Black glitter, bangle bracelet (that I got for Christmas) super large, black tear drop earrings with silver embellishments/studs (in the second earlobe hole, since the first is gauged)(oh yea, ….that I got for Christmas)
>>>makeup: um. None yet. But I do Have it all piled up here on my work desk to put on in just a min!!! Bitch be scary without some makeup!
                New trick to share for LONG, FULL lashes!!! First coat: Vaseline!! That’s right Vas-uh-fucka-line!, - get a new/clean mascara wand, dip that sumbitch into some Vaseline, start at the lash line and gently “vibrate” side to side up the lash. Let it sit for a moment. Now grab your regular mascara! (thank you pinterest!)
Weather: I don’t know. I was half asleep when I left this morning. It was dark. And foggy. And I’m too lazy to stand up to look out the window right now. It’s January… it’s Virginia…. It’s cold
Currently reading: 11/22/63 – Stephen King
Thought/Quote of the Day: “When you feel like quitting: think about why you started”
Song of the Day: Moves Like Jagger - Maroon 5 Moves Like Jagger - Maroon 5

Picture of the Day:



xoxo - Roxy

Happy 2013 Bitches!!!

Good morning 2013! (mid-morning: whatever) 10:27am
Today’s Date: January 1. 2013 (sorry Mayan’s)
Mood: hangover-less, so generally pleased
Health: rock n roll, baby
Outfit: NFL Officially Licensed Dallas Cowboys yoga pants [sh’up]black with fancy script down left leg), Nike sports bra(black), Style&Co ribbed tank [b/c saying “wife-beater” is so 2000](black) and fuzzy toe socks [brand un-known](pink,yellow, white striped)
>>>black nail polish by Milani (Black Swift) -  cheap, drug store crap… but it’s all I could get in a pinch. Kroger doesn’t exactly sell O.P.I, essie, or China Glaze… and it was, after all, New Year’s Eve!
>>>last night’s left over makeup- brought to you by Sephora – first rule: always wash off your makeup before going to bed. Amendment: unless you’re getting home at 3:00AM after partying with your friends in a rock band – then it’s totally excusable if you just come home and say “f--- it” and pass out
Weather: *pries eyes from computer screen and looks out the window* it looks cold. It’s January in Virginia…. It’s probably cold. And really overcast. They’re not calling for snow are they?
Currently reading: 11/22/63 – Stephen King
Thought/Quote of the Day: I have 2 actually.
1.       “She believed she could, so she did.”
2.       “Fear says, ‘No you can’t’. Determination says, ‘Yes! You can!’. Results say, ’I told you so’.”
Bitchy moment:  I realize this is beyond petty… but I’m actually a little irritated that I was able to catch up on my gym membership NOW. (stupid 2 months of un-employment)
Wait.
What?
Why?
Because now I look like a “Resolutioner” 
REZ.O.LOO.SHUN.ER- someone who is so thrilled to get that gym membership because they SWEAR they’re gonna get in shape THIS YEAR! And quit by Jan. 14.
FACT: 12% of new gym members join b/c of resolutions. 50% quit within the first 6 months of signing up and 90% of those quit within the first 90 days
<<back on track>>
Song of the Day: (Only b/c of what day it is) Have A Little Faith In Me – Jon Bon Jovi (from New Year’s Eve motion picture Soundtrack)
((((_Right – so the FIRST song you hear for the New Year is the “anthem” for the year. I got “Hit Me With Your Best Shot” – Pat Benetar. Interesting. last year was that Chicken Fried song..... :P _))))
Picture of the Day:
                                                                                                              My Jon Bon Jovi 2013 Calendar

xoxo - Roxy

HAPPY-FRICKEN-NEW-YEAR!!!